The question of whether or not Jesus' death actually could do anything for anyone else was a key question for me seven or eight years ago, just after I had graduated from college and before I discerned my vocation to the Order of Preachers. I was having a crisis of faith, torn between atheism on the one side and the allurement of a simpler monotheistic theology on the other (like that in Judaism or Islam). At the heart of it all was the question of Jesus. Was he really divine and the savior of the world? Could one person's death actually do anything for anyone else?To the disappointment of atheists and to the annoyance, perhaps, of Jews and Muslims and members of other faiths, Christians do not claim that faith in Jesus' divinity or in the saving power of his death is something that comes easy, as if the mystery of Jesus' life and death was something glaringly obvious and simple to understand. Indeed, it can seem down right foolish, as St. Paul declares: "For since, in the wisdom of God, the world did not know God through wisdom, God decided, through the foolishness of our proclamation, to save those who believe. For Jews demand signs and Greeks desire wisdom, but we proclaim Christ crucified, a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those who are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For God's foolishness is wiser than human wisdom, and God's weakness is stronger than human strength," (1 Cor. 1:21-25). Faith in the saving power of Jesus' death is exactly that--a matter of faith, something you come to believe and trust in because God has helped you to do so.
I can remember the Good Friday of the year I was having my crisis of faith; in particular, I remember turning to God in prayer and asking him point blank to tell me whether or not the Christian narrative was true. Was Jesus really the messiah? Was his death a saving event? The answer I received in prayer that day was a resounding "YES!" To this day I maintain that my faith in Jesus comes from the testimony of the Father that Jesus truly is the beloved Son and Messiah. I admit that a Trinitarian God is a strange concept, and that it would be easier to have a simpler monotheistic theological definition: but that is not God's reality.
The next step in my education was learning--as I have written about many times before--that Jesus is the supreme revelation of God and of humanity. His life, teachings, but especially his Crucifixion reveal the nature of God more than any other word ever could do. With all due respect, multiply the Holy Torah by a million, add thousands of Surahs to the Qur'an and you will not have, in my opinion, anything that compares to the Word Incarnate giving himself up for the redemption of the world. Nothing ever can compare to that self-gift.
It is precisely the concept of the power of self-giving, that is, self-transcending love, or the power of transcending oneself as a way of participating in the life-force of God, that helped me to understand the magnitude of the Crucifixion. If Jesus was only human, his Crucifixion would be a form of political and religious sabotage and victimization on the part of his countrymen. His offering up his death to God as expiation for sinners would be an eloquent manifestation of the great level of holiness that he had attained. How much more does that same death mean and effect since the one who died was the Word of God? How much more does it all mean, given that God was fully in control and working out his purpose despite human wickedness?
The plan of salvation history is the revelation of God and God's nature. Amazingly, Christian revelation declares that God's plan is to save the world--to save even sinners--through love. As St. Paul writes: "For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Indeed, rarely will anyone die for a righteous person--though perhaps for a good person someone might actually dare to die. But God proves his love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us. Much more surely then, now that we have been justified by his blood, will we be saved through him from the wrath of God," (Romans 5:6-9).
Of course, there are two related beliefs that one must have for this Christian interpretation of salvation history to matter: 1) a belief in the reality of human sinfulness 2) and the belief that it matters that we sin. We might add to these two a third: the belief that there is divine judgement and an afterlife.
I became highly aware of my own sinfulness yesterday during the Good Friday service. While it is true that I do not violate the Ten Commandments, or any major religious or legal precept generally, that does not mean that I am not sinful; after all, Christian morality is aimed at a much higher standard. Christian morality is aimed at divinity. As Jesus said, "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect," (Matt. 5:48). My sinfulness is manifested in the lack of self-transcendence in my life, the lack of generosity and love.
The story of Jesus' visit to Saints Martha and Mary of Bethany teaches us a lesson directly related to what I am talking about. Although St. Martha seems to be the one who is self-transcending in love by virtue of her service to Jesus, it is actually St. Mary whose love is self-transcending. Martha's complaints reveal that it is quite possible to be busy about many good and charitable deeds without having perfect charity. Self-transcending love is about action, to be sure, but its primary action is purely the act of love. Mary sitting with Jesus and listening to him--loving him--this reveals a much higher degree of self-transcendence. Had Martha's love been a self-transcending one, she would have seen the whole affair very differently.
I admit that I'm often much more like St. Martha in this, her moment of weakness, than I am like her sister, the glorious, but underappreciated St. Mary. I am busy about many, many things. I worry. I complain. I judge my brothers and sisters. I miss the Lord before me because I've made a lord out of my own desires. My love is little, and terribly confined to my "self," but I am quite capable of maintaining the appearance of righteousness, because I still obey the commandments--just as those hardworking Sadducees and Pharisees did in Jesus' day--but I'm missing the point. I'm not obeying the highest commandment; I'm not living up to Jesus' example or to the graces I received from the Holy Spirit in Baptism, Eucharist, prayer, etc. I am not loving enough.
Not being loving enough or not loving rightly is the cardinal sin. It is what most violates our human nature and makes us seem hideous and demonic rather than sons and daughters of God. It is the most common of sins, and so many people pass it off as simply human nature. Once you buy into the idea that it is human nature to sin, you have rejected Christianity. Sin is not human nature. Sin works against our human nature, pushes away God, and brings upon us countless internal and external evils.
Sin is, therefore, real and it matters very much. The lack of self-transcending love is at the heart of sin. Put differently, not one of us has a licence to hate anyone else. The moment you rationalize hatred, you have rejected the God who is Love (1 John 4:8), in whom there is no darkness at all (1 John 1:5). Christian love must be entirely radical, entirely divine in quality--only then will it be truly human love as it was intended to be. Accordingly, Jesus instructed us to love our enemies and pray for those who hate and persecute us (Matt 5:44); to reject the sword as a way of defending Christianity (Matt 26:52); to merely shake the dust off our shoes when our message is rejected (Matt 10:14); to leave the judging to God (Matt 7:1); to forgive everyone from our hearts every time we are asked for forgiveness (Matt 18:22, 35); to serve all those in most need of care (Matthew 25:31-36).
If, instead, you use Christianity to hate others, to boast against them, to persecute them and to judge them; if you ignore their needs in favor of your own--then your lack of self-transcending love will convict you. Not only do you have no faith, your example actively works against the Holy Faith. Christians work against the faith every time they sin--yes--but especially when they fail to love. There is nothing so scandalous as an unloving, ungenerous Christian. It is like the man in the parable who was forgiven his debts, only to turn around to demand payment from the one who owed him (Matt 18:23-35). If you think I exaggerate, did not St. John write "Now by this we may be sure that we know him, if we obey his commandments. Whoever says, 'I have come to know him,' but does not obey his commandments, is a liar, and in such a person the truth does not exist; but whoever obeys his word, truly in this person the love of God has reached perfection. By this we may be sure that we are in him: whoever says, 'I abide in him,' ought to walk just as he walked," (1 John 2:3-6).
And how did Jesus walk but in the way of self-transcending love? Because this love is self-transcending, it is big--big enough to encompass not only sinners who love him back, but also those who reject and persecute him. Thus he forgave those who put him to death (Luke 23:34).
It was by coming to understand love and how only in Christ Jesus was love ever accurately revealed that my heart was, and is, moved to cry out "My Lord and my God!" in response to his "This is my body," "This is my blood."
Perhaps it is true that it is not so hard to believe what Christianity proclaims so much as to live it. I believe that it is true that there are some people who are seemingly outside the Church that live lives of self-transcending love much closer to that of Jesus than many Christians--precisely because Christians get so caught up in the worship of Jesus that they fail to live like Jesus. It's not enough to say you have faith, St. James declared; you must allow that faith to pour out into activity (James 2:14-18). Indeed, he reminds us that "even the demons believe--and shudder," so right belief is not the sole criterion for salvation. Right action is demanded as well. The action is both simple and difficult: love.
Easier said than done, I know. On the global level I wonder if the days are gone when people can say of Christians: "Look how they love one another," (Tertullian, Apologeticum ch. 39, 7)? The Catholic Church has been rocked by scandal; the Anglican Communion at times seems on the brink of collapse; the Protestant Church is divided beyond counting, with many denominations lacking basic apostolic teaching, not to mention the priesthood and sacraments. The Orthodox Churches remain separate from each other and from their Catholic sister church. Heresies like the Jehovah's Witness and Mormon movements, along with mega churches preaching prosperity, present false gospels and people are accepting them despite St. Paul's warning (Gal. 1:8). A house divided will fall (Matt 12:25), and if it were not for Jesus' promise to preserve his Church by remaining with it always (Matt 16:18; Matt 28:20), I would think the Christian Church was going to collapse any day now. And this is only the internal drama. The history of Christian interaction with non-Christians is equally embarrassing and deplorable.
It can seem that "there is not one who does good, no, not one," (Psalm 53:3), and yet, Christ came to save sinners (Mark 2:17)--so his saving plan not only moves forward despite our sins, it has already been accomplished: in the Incarnation, the Crucifixion, the Resurrection, and the Ascension. His triumph was eloquently described in the second reading for Office of Readings this morning, taken from an ancient homily on Holy Saturday. "Something strange is happening..." the reading begins, and like a marvelous Shakespearean monologue the character of the Risen Christ speaks to Adam (to us all) and calls him out of hell into heaven--to the Throne of God, to the bridal chamber, and to the banquet hall, to the treasure houses of good things, to the kingdom of heaven that "has been prepared from all eternity."
The Lord's eager imperative, "Rise!" resounds in my heart. I look forward to the day when he says that to me at the Resurrection, but I hear him say it to me now. As a baptized Christian, as a daily communicant, Jesus' command "Rise!" is none other than the command "Love!" The first and last of every command; the meaning of creation; the definition of divinity and humanity--the All in All summed up in one word. Indeed, the darkness will fight against love's light, but it will not prevail (John 1:5). This is the power of transcendent love--there's absolutely no way to win against it, because even killing the person who manifests it only releases it into the world--in the space of things seen and unseen--a shock wave of grace that obliterates what is evil, transforms the sinful and saturates the already good with holiness.
When Christ offered himself for the redemption of creation while dying on the Cross, and when he actually died with that prayer in his sacred heart, he destroyed once and for all the false definition of love that had entered the world. The grace released by his testimony to transcendent love is still changing the world, converting hearts, and leading the dead to new life. May the love of God in Christ and the Spirit overwhelm us this Easter! May it lead to a new and everlasting Pentecost! May it end our wars, heal our planet, unite all people, and bring God's kingdom to fulfillment!
Br. Paul, OP

