
*The Great Apostle, St. Paul, once wrote, “In my weakness, I am strong.” I have to admit, this saying of his doesn’t always resonate with my personal experience. It can be just plain embarrassing for those of us seeking perfection to be found to be wholly and utterly imperfect.
*I have discovered that teaching can be quite a humbling experience, one ripe with opportunities to show how weak I am. On any given day, no matter what I’ve done to prepare for class, I can completely go blank, and look like I have absolutely no idea what I’m talking about. In such moments my weakness feels just like that---weakness---and I would hate it if, years from now, when the kids are remembering the course, that those moments would be the ones they remember most.
*As I reflected on these experiences, I couldn’t help imagining that it’s difficult for the saints to listen to us when we talk about them, because we tend to remember them at their weakest. For example, this past Sunday was the Solemnity of Ss. Peter and Paul, the two giants of the Early Church and still we were reminded that Peter denied Christ three times, and Paul persecuted the Church. And today, on the feast of St. Thomas, another apostle and martyr, we are reminded in scripture that Thomas doubted. Indeed, we remember all too well one another’s failings.
*The interesting thing is, at least with the apostles, that we seem to love them better, because of their weaknesses. It brings these giants, upon whom the Church is founded, (as the first reading reminds up), back down to earth with us.
*But even more interesting, from my perspective anyway, is how these moments of weaknesses are ironically rewarded. After all, Peter may have denied Christ three times, but he also gets to tell Jesus that he loves him three times. And even though Paul persecuted the Church, Jesus comes personally to convert him. And, finally, even though Thomas doubts, he has the privilege of touching for himself the body of the glorified, risen Lord. Not bad.
*So, I think today is a great feast---the Feast of St. Thomas the Doubter---a man who in his weakness has, I think, probably inspired countless of Christians who have doubts of their own, to persevere in their faith.
*We Dominicans, who have taken up the Apostolic mission of preaching, should take heart, therefore, knowing that it’s not always the great homily, or the perfect lesson plan, or the random act of kindness that preaches the Gospel best---rather, sometimes, it’s our own little humanity, weak as it is, that most perfectly speaks truth to another person, and makes manifest God’s saving love to the world.